and i miss you.

Dear Blog ,
today i got a call from my dad . You see my dad is a good dad . I mean seriously , i remember when the times me and my family struggles for the search of money . During that time , we were sooo close and well maybe lack of money . We had dinner at mcdonalds like Once  in two weeks. We always order a large set and eat it together . I was so happy and still young  and thinking everything was alright .. but no ..

During that time ,Mum had regular job and  my dad keeps going Overseas and the best part was that he kept buying me stuffs like tamagochi and a scooter . Even though everything seems normal ,  my mum and dad always have a fight . My mum doesnt like my dad who kept going overseas and leaving me , my sisters and my brother with her , but my dad was forced to work no matter where it takes .. why was he forced ? its all about the money ..

That time , when i was like 8 yrs old , i remember i got awake by the loud noise made by my parents in the early morning. They were arguing , although i cant remember what were they arguing about ,  im pretty sure that  its about the stuff i just mentioned up there .  I went off my bed and walk towards them and ask " whats going on ?"   they didnt reply anything but told me to just get back to sleep .

a few year later , things started to change. 

 My dad , He doesnt give up easily . In my house , theres a room full of books and Cds , thats my dad's office. We call it his office bcos he kept  staying in that room listening to his favourite tracks , reading books and did all his work there . untill now, the room didnt even change a bit .
My dad keeps on getting promotion and got  transfer to lots of office . At first i thought he got fired a lot of times , but when i look at my family now , i understand what is he facing.

So , well , . He's working in Arab now . He had a good job here but he likes getting  new experience in his life . He comes back here every 4 - 6 moths .  Its  a sad case , but he oftenly calls us from Arab . He always ask  about my  school results and kept saying that he's worried about me for not doing well in my exams . but i promised him one thing . Im gonna score this SPM no matter what i have to go through , insyallah . Those words are usually not enough to make him satisfy  bcos i kept failing  lots of subject .  

In the end of all conversation , it always end with i love you . He even told me that i need not to worry about anything because he is always there to help me yet  i still need to work hard in school.


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Ayah , i just wanna tell you that i love you . Dont worry about me too much okay , because i will be more worried if you keep thinking im a failure in my life . Ill do my best in SPM and i will make you proud , insyallah.   Muaxx  

-Rith