Fucking bored .

Fuck yeah bitches.
when i say im fucking bored , that doesnt mean im bored.
when you're bored , you know on the next 15 minutes , something new will come out . i mean maybe you will feel like eating , or playing something , and yeah you will do the things you feel like doing on that time.
Unlike me i think life is full or boredness or should i say fucking boring . Why? Gee i dont know , maybe its because everyday is the same thing . You wake up eat the same thing , see the same people , do the same thing .. everyday is the same bitches !!
its like living in an aquarium or toaster (ive already told you this in my other post)






soo yeah i fucking bored , seriously dont know what to do , usually i eat , play games , do a little reading and sleep and just repeat those things everyday and everytime ... haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaihhhhhhhhh .... Oh my dog ... seriously dont know what to tell you more ..nothing is in my head now .

the call

alright , i told her that im like only taking her as a friend .
before that , here's how it goes ..

"Hey Faz" says me

"hie :D " says her

"why do you sound soo not you while chatting "

" i dont know faz , i just dont feel right "

" thats why i call you , i really care about you , if you wanna talk im always here"

"alright faz , i really need to tell you something "

"Yeah ? "

"I still remember the first day i went into the account tution , i was soo new there i dont even know anyone . I mean nobody even talk to me and so do i ."

"hehe yea "

"yea , but day by day , i start making friend with you and calvin . i mean look at us now , we are soo close huh ? haha ."

"yups"

" yea . and this year , were like getting closer huh ? we are calling each other and sms-ing each other and getting to know each other "

"awww"

"haha , aww yea . and we already start asking each other going out now ? haha unbelievable ."

"isnt it sweet ?"

"yup , but faz , i really need to ask you something "

"yea?"

"what do you take me like ? do you like me ? "

"urmmm.. ( took like 10 secs of uurmmm..)

"Faz , cmon .. just tell me the truth"

"i dont know what this all mean hisyam "

" ok , ill go first , i like you . Do you like me ? "

"yea"

" how much ? and what am i to you ? "

" i like you a lot , more than a friend actually "

" Faz , i like you you know ? i really like you , youre a sweet girl . tapi faz , i anggap you as a friend saje . okay ? "

"Okay ( with a weird tone and voice )"

"right , i know this is odd , maybe i perasan you suke i sangat and all this things , but i really wanna let you know i take u as a friend okay ? "

" okay.."

" and i lied to you about going out , i mean you kept asking me to go out and i kept giving excuses i have tution and guitar lessons . its all bullshit okay ? im sorry , i just not into going out with you , theres nothing with you , its just me .. "

"its all fine with me , i pun actually lazy to go out "

" ahaha ooh , why dont you tell me "

"haha , but going out with you is different "

"hehe"

"but promise me youre still gonna be the Hisyam i know .."

"of course i will , what ?! do you think from now i wont talk to you ? fuck no =P"

"haha"


and yea .. we just talk random craps again till i told her that im sleepy and called it as a day . so yea .

This is it .

Okay this is it .
im just gonna tell her that i only take her as a sister .
yup. I cant take it anymore ...
i kept thinking about her , she kept calling and message me all the time . I mean like hey look ! were not a couple or have any relation soo why are u calling me everyday ... it kinda feds me up .. so yea , im just gonna go to her and tell her i juz take her more like a friend .

Watch this bitches

girl

okay ... so remember the bitch that i said she's really fucking friendly too me ? yea .. and i told you right i tried to get her but yeah i give up bcos i know bitches dont really like plain normal dude .  yea ... so .. Fuck her ..

anyways , theres this girl , i think she kinda like me .. well i kinda like her too but i think shes kinda weird . Well it all started at the Tution Class . On that day , she kinda dressed up very nice  and ask me to sit beside her . So yea , i did . We talk talk talk and yea juz talk random craps . In the end , she asked for my number and even wanna take a picture off me .. so im like okay :D

til now we are still chatting . I can see that she likes me very much . She kept telling me that shes a loner .. doesnt have friends , and im like .. awww , dun say that .. and yeah she kept asking me to go out with her . but  i hate to tell her i dont wanna .

bcos theres something which i can say that i hate her , a bit :

1.she's weird

2. short ( ok i have no prob with that )

3. but she talks and looks cute , ( just scared if we go out , ppl will think we are like Bro and sis)

4.she really loves animals , i mean reallly really , she told me something sooo odd and weird

5. more , just cant put my fingers on it .

yea ... so , i like her , love her attitude and she nice , but like i said , shes short , do weird stuff  and talks funny . i dont mean tosay all this , but this stuff just like go to my mind wondering why  is she like this .

friends keep telling me just to take her , but yea , those stuffs blocks my way .

just wish i have a prostitute in my house , would do sex all day to release stress  and have fun.

Just a friend

yea , im so just a friend .
that girl keeps talking about dudes in her life ..  i dunt even know who the Fouk are they .
anyways , Giving up on her .
why go on girls who acts fucking friendly with you , but in the end just abandon you and dont talk to you till u say something , just like Poor little Cute kittens in a box that you find at the road side.
Okay , i dont mean to say F , but on that day and second , i just feel like  ... haih .. nevermind , maybe i think too much . Of course ,  she wont take me like someone more than just a friend .. im just a friend .. a friend with  ridDICKulous hopes  ..

Saiful !
thank you for reading my blog !
i appreciate that =)

Dreaming big

Disk Jockey !!

what's Disk Jockey you ask ? its DJ damn it !! =D
yes its me , in another random episode of Blogging .
todays topic is .. my dreams ?
well since the day i was born , mum and dad always ask me what i wanna be when i grow up . And i always reply to them that i wanna be a God so i can have everything i want . xD
but then when i start schooling and education fills my brain , i now realise the real thang  .
Sometimes when i lay on my bed ,  i always think what will happen to me in the future ...
Loads of Question passes through my mind .. such as:

Will i be successful in life ?

will i make mommy and ayah happy ?

will i get a Lovely sexy wife ?

is tooth fairy real ? =D

and yea ... still wondering what i wanna be when i grow up . Years pass and when my mum and dad ask me what i wanna do and be when i grow up , i kept saying " I Dunnoe " .. and yea , they get mad with that kind of answer . I mean just immagine you ordered a Cup of Latte and it took soo long just to make ur latte , so you stood up and shouted " Oi  " followed by " wheres my latte !" and the blurr case dude was like .. " I dunnoe " .. Random much , yea ..

anyways , everytime when i say " I dunnoe " , my mum and dad will be .. kinda angry . Bcos yea , im the first son , so they really expect big things from me and  by saying " I dunnoe " is like as if i have no future. 

in the age of 16 ... i start learning accounting . Accounting is fun ! and i really enjoy doing all my  accounting homeworks and stuffs . and then i just realised that theres a type of occupation known as " Accountant " .. So im like , ZOMG , im loving accounting so okay , when i grow up i wanna be an Accountant !

but a few months pass and i really change . i mean i really really change . Well im like from the Lonely Untalkkative Emo kid in to a  Lunatic .? well i dunno how to explain . But i can see soem several changes .

1. start dancing

2. start to like crowds and loud music

3. simply do the things that i wanna do 

4 . talkative , like to talk to ppl although i dunno hu the hell they are.

5. and a lot more ... oh ya , i start to love trance and techno .

yups , i really change alot .. those 5 things are the only thing i can think of right now . so now , im like Really into this music industries thingy . I kept watching these great party events that was held in this Earth ..:

qlimax
q-base
xqlusive
the qontinent
defqon-1
inqontrol
qountdown
houseqlassics
qlubtempo
q-dance @ tommorowland
q-dance @ mysterland
q-dance presents scantraxx
q-dance @ planet love
q-dance presentations around the world just called q-dance

they so rock .. anyways yea . i now proudly telling u guys , i wanna be a Dj . Not just some stupid Dj . Dj's that make the best head banging tunes , Host clubs and party events ..
yea .. i wanna be a DJ.

El Puta Madre

urm , i accidenttly Publish this Post ..
please read the post above .
thank you for understanding.

Teenagers

Lets talk about teens =D
i think we are lucky and should be thankful to god that we were born here in Malaysia , okay maybe not all , but i bet you bloggers sure live in a very peaceful and wonderful country =P
We have the money to buy anything we want to , We have the looks to get our perfect match , we have a good school to gain knowledge and bla bla bla , we have almost everything.

but have u guys ever wondered , which country has the worst teenagers ? well i dont mean worst teenagers i mean teenagers who live in a very bad country and have a bad life . So far as i concern , i think if you're a teenager and living in some Arab land , you're pretty unlucky . Why ? ill tell you .

First , im not doing this to make fun of some people , im  just doing this to tell what i think about people . No hard feelings aite. =)

(1) Being an Arab teenager is kinda bad , because first , You cant just go to a girl and talk to her .

(2) you cant even meet a girl , talk to a girl , touch her , or see her stuffs .. Oh lala~

(3) As a muslim , you must dress up nicely everyday . I dont mean nicely , i mean something like you gotta wear clothes that covers some of your body parts.

(4) If your a dude , You must wear a Robe/Jubah , everyday , because thats the only thing dudes over there wear . If your a gal , you need to cover everything , except for your eyes.

(5) because of those things , its harder to choose a girl . haha , you know what i mean?

(6) More stuffs , go and be an Arabian , then you'll know .

haha , in conclusion , im just talking craps because this is the only topic that i have in my head . So , hehehe ~ just be thankful to god about the good things you have in life.

Doesnot go well.

Yea , remember the girl i tried to get ? and in the process ?
yeah .. i just have a feeling that she only take me as a friend .

It sucks to give up , but i tell  you some stuff that i  know she takes me only as a Friend

 (1) In her blog , she always complain about boys . Im not sure if shes angry at him or like him , but yea she talk about boys .

(2) At first she talks and sms and chat to me as if like she really loves chatting with me , but now i can see like .. well .. she's talking to me like a friend .. Okay i cant explain it to you , but if you were me , you will know the different.

(3) About 25th / her bday . I asked her out  , and shes like okay with it . So today i thought i wanna get 2 movie tickets to watch "Australia" and maybe get a teddy bear for her and give her in the end of that day . But when i asked her again about the meetup on her Bday , she said maybe she has soemthing going on . ( okay , shes a popular girl so its no doubt for soemthing going on on her Bday , so im cool with that )

(4) more stuffs , just gotta be me to know ..

So yea , should i give up on her ?  She's a sweet girl and yea , dated a lot of dudes but break up because all the dudes cheated on her . Im not really like going mad about her , but it would be nice to have something new in life . I mean  , i still have a crush on her since i know she's the most trusted ,polite and gentle  and smexy xD .. but yea ... thought of giving up .. at first i thought she really really like like me .. but after a while .. i just realize maybe she take me as a friend ....

Should i give up ? or just keep on trying ?   

Busy ..

damn , i've been very busy nowadays .
i cant say that im soo busy , but it has been a tiring day for me.
i kept getting sleepy and tired more often.
but at night , i will always online for a girl that i kinda like :)

wanna hear the story ?! sure !!

so this girl , i remember the first time i met her was in the year of 2004 , where im still a small kid / primary school student / 12 years old . We dont usually talk , but if i pass by her , i'll always say " hi " and plus with a smile  =D well , i kinda had a crush on her.

Time passes by and i went to the world of High School . I still remember the sweet smile of that girl and still wondering what happened to her . Days go by , years went thru soo fast and it was on 31 december 2008  , something nice happened to me .

i was at The Curve / shopping complex . I was just chilling there at night to celebrate the arrival of the new year . While  i was just standing waiting for my friend , someone pat me on the back . I turned around and was shocked that some of my old primary  pals  were at the back of me. they greet me with a sincere smile =) i was soo glad and happy i met them . We talked for a while , asking each other How's it going  and bla bla bla =P  and the girl that i have a crush on was there . I  thought that she had forgotten my name , but no . So do i . we were like " OMG you stil remember me ? =D " . yup

i went back home and like felt sooo happy because of that priceless moment . I asked for her number from a friend of hers . and yup , hoping to get her :) 

were still talking now , and yea , somehow i just feel like telling her what i think about her and  maybe get our friendship to the next level =)  i really really hope that she likes me too and know how i feel about her .

 oh well , what a story =P

Pressure

like i've mentioned , i will be facing SPM this year .
im always fooling around and having fun all the time , but dont get me wrong . I always study at night and times of boredom .
I hate it when people keep telling me to stop fooling around and study study study . Like my mom , i mean , i  study u see , its just that when im studying , you think im sitting in a room playing games and chatting to my friends . NO!
and keep yelling and telling me to study .. dude , do you know how tired i am after i just got back to school , plus with more stupid extra classes ..

its not like i dont care about this SPM . Of course i care , but that doesnt mean i must study all the time right ?

School life ..

Yeah , school .
the place where you gain knowledge and seek guidance from smart people . haha !
anyways , i kinda hate it .
everyday is just the same old plain day  :

I mean i woke up , Have breakfast , learn learn and Recess and learn learn , go back home , then   have lunch then  is either play computer or go tution or sleep and in the evening is either tution or go out and play . Night , play computer and homeworks and sleep .

my life is kinda like boring , its like in an Aquarium / a Bread toaster / a toilet bowl / a broken record player . Lets take example like Aquarium . Im like a fish , everyday is the same old thing and when its holiday , its like im being put in a plastic full of water while my owner cleans up my dirty aquarium tank . And when the school starts back , i will be put back in that hell .

but seriously i just cant wait to go out of school .
im a senior now and it will be my last year at school as i will face the bigest examination of everyones like in Malaysia known as SPM ( sijil pergi mati ) nahh just joking , i was talking about the sijil pergi mati . SOoo anyways, this SPM will decide where will you be studying for the next years coming and what will you dudes be when u  are getting old .

now , im like trying to focus more on studies and in the same time having fun like theres no tomorrow . 

and i miss you.

Dear Blog ,
today i got a call from my dad . You see my dad is a good dad . I mean seriously , i remember when the times me and my family struggles for the search of money . During that time , we were sooo close and well maybe lack of money . We had dinner at mcdonalds like Once  in two weeks. We always order a large set and eat it together . I was so happy and still young  and thinking everything was alright .. but no ..

During that time ,Mum had regular job and  my dad keeps going Overseas and the best part was that he kept buying me stuffs like tamagochi and a scooter . Even though everything seems normal ,  my mum and dad always have a fight . My mum doesnt like my dad who kept going overseas and leaving me , my sisters and my brother with her , but my dad was forced to work no matter where it takes .. why was he forced ? its all about the money ..

That time , when i was like 8 yrs old , i remember i got awake by the loud noise made by my parents in the early morning. They were arguing , although i cant remember what were they arguing about ,  im pretty sure that  its about the stuff i just mentioned up there .  I went off my bed and walk towards them and ask " whats going on ?"   they didnt reply anything but told me to just get back to sleep .

a few year later , things started to change. 

 My dad , He doesnt give up easily . In my house , theres a room full of books and Cds , thats my dad's office. We call it his office bcos he kept  staying in that room listening to his favourite tracks , reading books and did all his work there . untill now, the room didnt even change a bit .
My dad keeps on getting promotion and got  transfer to lots of office . At first i thought he got fired a lot of times , but when i look at my family now , i understand what is he facing.

So , well , . He's working in Arab now . He had a good job here but he likes getting  new experience in his life . He comes back here every 4 - 6 moths .  Its  a sad case , but he oftenly calls us from Arab . He always ask  about my  school results and kept saying that he's worried about me for not doing well in my exams . but i promised him one thing . Im gonna score this SPM no matter what i have to go through , insyallah . Those words are usually not enough to make him satisfy  bcos i kept failing  lots of subject .  

In the end of all conversation , it always end with i love you . He even told me that i need not to worry about anything because he is always there to help me yet  i still need to work hard in school.


<3

Ayah , i just wanna tell you that i love you . Dont worry about me too much okay , because i will be more worried if you keep thinking im a failure in my life . Ill do my best in SPM and i will make you proud , insyallah.   Muaxx  

-Rith

Pretty boy ?

So , i was just hanging out with my maid and my sis  when suddenly  a song appeared in my mind named . M2m - Pretty boy  .. So , i quickly rushed up and downloaded it  O.O
Amazingly , im loving that song sooo much ...  No ! im not Gay !

Its a nice song ler .  i mean its so sweet .. 
cant believe i fell in love with that kind of songs .
Everybody in my family told me that im like a pregnant woman .
thats kinda true bcos im sooo random . I mean i Love techno and trance and all those hard beats club tracks but sometimes i fell in love with wierd songs like :
 Lenny Kravitz-  It Aint Over till Its over
 T.at.u  - not gonna get us

haha , even this post is soo random  :D

hiie :D

Hmm , hello =D

To be honest with you , im not really sure about what im doing. I've just created now Blog account and  and  this website directs me automaticly to this page . It says "Create a Blog" , so i clicked it and now im still confused  .. like a baby that was born in an African jungle .. No , not you Tarzan.

Okay , sooo anyways , Im harith . Nice to meet ya :)
well , i heard this .. Blog .. from my friends and my sister . At first i thought it was lame but i end up making a Blog account . So , from now , im gonna tell you guys about my life and all the stuffs bloggers post .

Its kinda late right now in Malaysia ,
its 1 in the morning and im still not asleep.
think its time i call it a day , nitey nitez .

-love Rith